When people ask me what my book will be about, the short answer is: my journey to become a mama.

There are a lot of pieces in my book that have nothing to do with becoming a parent, but my family experiences as I was growing up, and friendships that molded my life.

I explain how Aaron and I met, our relationship as it evolved, and planning our wedding and our future.

I wrote a lot about my feelings and viewpoint during the time that we were trying to become parents, and the losses along the way.

I explain the infertility treatments we went through, to the best of my ability.  There was a lot for me to learn, as someone with no medical knowledge.

The hardest part of writing the book was reliving the devastating loss of our beautiful twins, Charlie and Savannah.  I still cry almost every time I edit that chapter.  There are a lot of raw emotions that come flooding back, every single time.

There is a good amount about the next steps, moving on, and of course, borrowing my cousin’s uterus.

I tried to document all of the feelings and thoughts I had during our gestational carrier journey, and how our beautiful daughter, Maizy was brought into the world in an unconventional way.  My cousin, Lyndsay, who is the hero in my life, is a huge part of the book.  Of course, our surprise miracle, Layla, the final piece to The Dube family puzzle, plays a big part in the book.

Lastly, my book is about how life doesn’t always work out the way we plan it.  I did things I never thought I would do, as anyone in the same situation would have done.

My sole purpose in writing this book, is to provide comport, peace, and hope to the people struggling to create their families.  My heart has never left the pain and agony of waiting month after month, hoping to be pregnant, waiting, not so patiently, to become a mama.